Don’t think I’ve mentioned this here before, but I’m an Earth Healer. I have the capacity to energetically connect with the land below me, talk to it, and heal it. In the process, I also heal myself and open myself up to a whole new dimension of existence. Sounds pretty cool, huh? You’d think I’d do it all the time, then, huh? You’d sure think.

For some reason, this is something I’ve only done a few times but have always been able to do with little difficulty. With the money concerns I’ve been having lately (money, food, shelter and physical well-being are all Earth energy), I decided to do my thing. I also decided that I want to do this more often, for my own well-being but also because with everything we humans are doing the Earth right now, she can use our good vibes!

So, when Joy fell asleep for her nap, I went and sat on the back deck and meditated. The trick to doing this work is to get to the smallest core of myself, to become that tiny area of energy. Then, I acknowledge that everything in the Universe is reflected in that tiny spot. Suddenly, I can feel all of everything inside of me, including and especially the land within a quarter mile or so. At this point, I just offer my presence, I don’t try to fix or actively do anything. Awareness in itself is healing, so I offer my awareness, and I let myself flow through any resistence I feel either from myself or from the energy of the land (and some land is carrying some nasty energy from bad things people have done). I just stay in connection and I let it flow, and that’s how the work is done. It’s always really powerful, so as I said, I’m not sure why I don’t do it more. Maybe because it’s so mind blowing!!!

Anyway, even though this meditation was to address Earth and Money issues (which I did feel a lot of shifting on), the most prominent event of the meditation was that my inner Trickster awakened! Suddenly, I was a Trickster Goddess, and my work was about creating the element of surprise to crack the veils of routine perceptions, while simultaneously holding compassionate awareness.

I realized next that my Trickster has been hidden in shadow for years! I must have felt scared of this energy within me, and buried it, but of course, burying anything brings out the worst in it. And, from it’s shadow position, my Trickster was still playing tricks, but not good kinds. I think this is where lots of my financial self-destructiveness comes from, from my desire to break open the artificial world for light to shine in. That desire by itself is beautiful, but when reviled, it turns ugly too. It’s still not “evil” but in its desire to be free, I repeat the same negative patterns that will jar me over and over enough until I am tired of the strain, and look at it (which I have been doing, and which leads me to this point).

So, I have not yet fully embodied my Trickster Goddess self, partly because it is such an intense energy shift. I have moments, though, where I am fully her, I am fully me and I am filled with playful, creative, ingenious and surprising ideas for how to make my life work, how to make money, how to relate better in the world, and how to create some cracks in the dysfunctional shared reality. Embodying this energy feels amazing, and I feel like it’s just the beginning!